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After getting all packed up, Chris and I head over to the house that we found near his job. It was almost dark when we got to the house.  

When we finally get all of our stuff put away, Chris comes up behind me, putting his arm around my shoulders. I look over and see that Chris didn’t waste any time getting dressed for bed. 

Our bedroom is located on the second floor of our new house. Although we share a bedroom, we each have our own separate beds. Chris settled for a twin size bed that he has a perfect place for in the bedroom. I wanted a bigger bed for when my belly got bigger. “This will be the first time we have shared a bedroom. Are you sure you don’t mind?” Chris asks me as he pulls the covers down on his bed. “I would prefer you to be here with me. I can sleep better when you are close to me,” I tell him. “I’m glad, it is comforting that you are close to me too,” he says with a smile as he climbs into bed. 

The next morning I wake up, Chris has already got up and made his bed without me knowing. I haven’t slept that good in a long time. I get dressed and head downstairs to start breakfast. I find Chris typing away at his computer at the kitchen counter. “Why are you up so early?” I ask. “I slept well, so I decided to get an early start on getting appointments made and some work done,” he tells me. “What appointments?” I ask. “I want to take you to the doctor so we can get both of you checked out. I want to make sure everything is ok with your pregnancy,” he says.

All of a sudden, I become sick to my stomach. I grab my stomach and my mouth, I let out a groan. My morning sickness had eased up, but not today. 

“Are you ok?” Chris asks me. I hold up one hand as I dash in the direction of the bathroom. 

I barely make it before I’m on my hands and knees in front of the commode heaving. 

When I come out after cleaning up, I sit down in front of the tv on the floor. Chris was busy at his computer, so I decided to find something to watch to pass the time. Chris shuts down his laptop, then walks over to me. He kneels down behind me, wrapping his arms around me from behind.”Feeling better?” he asks. “Much,” I reply. 

He pulls me up off the floor, then leads me to the couch. We sit down together as he explains what appointments he has made. “How do you know what doctors to see?” I ask. “I had a sister that was pregnant once. I use to go to her appointment with her because the baby’s dad didn’t care about them,” Chris explains. “I never knew you had a sister,” I say. “She passed away from an accident many years ago. The accident killed them both; she never got a chance to be a mother. When she died, she was seven months pregnant,” he tells me. I sit there in shock, he never told me the story of what happened to his family, I’m not sure what to say. “It’s ok, it was a long time ago,” he says with a gentle smile.

Later that evening, we decide to head outside to enjoy the nice weather and the beautiful beach. We pull the lounge chairs on the back porch facing the beach. It’s so peaceful as the sound of the waves crash on the seashore. This is the perfect fresh start both of us needed.

”Walk with me,” Chris says as he stands up, taking me by my hand. He leads me down to the beach. He turns to me with a gentle smile on his face. 

 “Can I?” he asks as he looks at my belly. “Yeah,” I reply. He places his hand on my stomach with a gentle touch. He looks so fascinated as he rubs my belly. “Did it move?” he asks as he looks up at me with wide eyes. “Yes,” It’s a crazy feeling. It started off as small flutters to now I can feel the baby move,” I tell him as he watches my stomach with pure wonder. 

After a few days have passed, I get ready for my first doctor’s appointment while Chris reads the paper.

When we arrive at the doctor’s office, I sign in then take a seat in the waiting area.   

They call me in and take me into an exam room. A nurse takes my vitals and a sample of my blood and urine. 

She walks back into the room. “You’re pregnant, we now just have to get some measurements and an ultrasound to see how far along you are,” she tells me as she helps me lay back. 

A woman rolls in with a machine. “I’m here to get an ultrasound of your baby. “Ok,” I reply as I lay down on the examining table. “I’m going to put some gel on your belly, it may be a little cold,” she says as she reaches over to get a bottle and a towel. She squirts some gel onto my belly then takes a device that is attached to the monitor to get a picture of the baby. The sound of the baby’s heartbeat fills the room as a picture of a baby appears on the screen. I have never seen anything like it before. I watch my baby move it’s arms and legs as the women take measurements of the baby. I can’t believe there is a little human in my belly. “Do you want to know what you’re having?” she asks. I think about it for a moment. “I want to wait till it’s born,” I reply. She finishes up then wipes the gel off my belly.

After she’s all done with me, I sit upon the table. “Wait here and the doctor will be with you in a moment,” she says.

A young doctor in his early thirty’s comes in. “Let’s take a look. According to your ultrasound, you are six months pregnant. The baby looks really healthy,” he adds. 

He takes us to his office to discuss the results of my tests. “So, I already told you that you were six months pregnant. Your blood work looks good, and the baby is a little small but seems to be healthy. “Have you been having a lot of morning sickness?” he asks me. “I have, I thought it was stress for a long time, I didn’t realize I was pregnant until recently,” I tell the doctor. “I’m surprised you didn’t realize you had missed any of your periods and the sickness. Did you not notice any changes in your body?” he asks. “My periods were never regular. “Try to minimize your stress for the health of your baby. The nurse told me that you wanted to wait to find out what the baby is, are you sure you don’t want to know what you’re having?” he asks. 

I look over at Chris, who raises an eyebrow at me. I know he’s really supportive, but this makes it so real. A little baby is growing in my belly. “So, do we want to know?” I ask Chris. “I would like to wait if that is ok with you. I think it would be nice to find out what the baby is when it is born,” he says. 

I think about it for a minute.”I think we will wait to find out what we’re having,” I tell the doctor. He nods and writes something down in my chart. 

“Congratulations again, if you have any problems just let my office know. Here is your next appointment,” he says as he hands me a card. Chris and I leave the office with good news. I still can’t believe I’m six months pregnant. 

Nice weather has set in as Chris, and I have settled into a simple life. When I join Chris in the pool, he splashes me with water, taking me by complete surprise. 

I give him a dirty look, which makes him pout. I can’t keep the smile off my face as he pouts even bigger. 

The nice weather is a boost in spirits. Chris and I decide to hang out on the couch. He loves to cuddle as we watch tv. 

I feel myself getting tired, and instead of heading upstairs to lie down, I use Chris as a personal pillow. He doesn’t seem to mind as he plays with my hair. I’m out before I even realize it.  

 I figure I have napped for a while as I look up to see I haven’t moved in over an hour. I look up at Chris who is watching tv. I stretch out, then sit up. “How long have I been asleep?” I ask him. “Not long, maybe an hour at the most,” he says. 

I stand up stretching my legs. “The baby is moving,” I say as I rub my belly. “Can I?” he asks as he points to my belly with a grin on his face. “You don’t have to ask, you can rub my belly as much as you want,” I say as I giggle at Chris who starts to rub my belly. I watch his eyes light up as the baby kicks under his hand. “That is amazing, the baby is getting stronger by the day. I can feel a whole foot,” he says. At six months, my belly has grown to a cute little bump. The baby has started to really move now. 

“It’s going to be so neat having a little one running around here,” he says as he rubs my belly once again. 

It’s getting late, and Chris wants to head out and watch the starts. What a hopeless romantic he has become. I never thought he was so sweet even after all the years that I have known him. I look at this man and see how much he truly cares about me. It moves me in ways that I could never imagine. 

I sit down with Alex in the living room. “Can I talk to you about something?” I asked. “Sure, what’s on your mind?” he asks me. “Chris and I have decided to get into a relationship. I know you wanted me to give you a chance, and I told you I couldn’t open myself up to anyone. Chris and I have been best friends for a long time. He has been my rock through a lot of hard times, and he risked his life to save mine. He knows I may never be able to love him like he loves me, but he wants to try. I told him I would try, but there were no guarantees that I could do it,” I tell Alex, who is not shocked. “I already knew, Chris told me that he was going to try to win you over. He explained that he was in love with you and wanted me to back off,” Alex explains. “He did?” I ask. “Yes, and he also told me that you were pregnant with the baby of your boyfriend that got killed. I’m ok with it. Honestly, I think you guys will make a great couple, Alex says. “I’m going to kill him,” I say. “Now, don’t do that. Chris is excited even though he’s not the dad. He must have had a close relationship with your boyfriend,” he says. “Yes, they were best friends. I know he misses him just as much as I do,” I say. 

After I get done talking to Alex, I head into the kitchen to get something to eat. I have noticed that I crave certain foods. It seems that peanut butter sandwichs seems to be on the top of my list today. I don’t even sit down to eat it. It tastes so good as I wolf it down fast.

Getting ready to head out to take a swim, I get hit with a sick feeling. I have a sudden urge to throw up. I have also noticed that I get hit with sickness almost every morning and sometimes shortly after I eat. I can’t seem to keep much down these days. 

Grabbing my stomach and trying to hold my contents down, I dash to the bathroom. 

As unladylike as I am, I hurl up all my lunch. 

Geeze, this baby is putting me to the test. I regain myself as my stomach eases up, and I can finally get up off the floor. 

Another month has passed, and things have started to settle down with the morning sickness. I have lost weight from all the sickness, which would explain why I’m not showing much. The guys are out fooling around in the yard while I take to the piano. The sound alone takes me to places of joy. I lose myself in the song. After a while of playing, I want to see what the guys are up to. 

I find them outback raking the falling leaves as fall has set in. I personally don’t see why since the trees keep making a mess until there are no more leaves, but they seem content in their efforts to clear the yard. 

Chris is hard at work looking all cute in his sweater and jeans, unaware that I’m watching him across the yard. 

I head in Chris’s direction when a squirrel runs out in front of me. I find him amusing as he runs circles around my feet. 

Chris startles me when he walks right up on me. “You scared me,” I say as Chris smiles at me. 

Putting his arm around my shoulders, Chris gives me a big grin as he walks with me over to where Alex is finishing up. “What are you grinning at?” I ask. “You’re happy, it melts my heart to see you smile,” he replies. “You’re a hopeless romantic,” I tell him.

After Chris and Alex finish cleaning up, we all walk into the house. Chris suggests a playful match of ping pong. He dominates the game leaving me winded and running for the ball. 

 When Chris gets finished showering, he meets me in the living room. He leans over and turns on the stereo. Music fills the room as Chris pulls me into his arms. “Dance with me,” he says. I take his hand, and he begins to sway. 

 He spins me taking me by surprise. “Oh,” I blurt out. He giggles, pulling me closer. He never ceases to amaze me with his graceful moves. Is there anything he doesn’t know how to do? I think to myself as I grin at him. 

“The house is ready for us to move into,” he says as he twirls me again. “When do you want to move in?” I ask. “Is tomorrow too soon?” he asks. “That’s perfect, I can’t wait,” I reply. 

 The song ends, and Chris releases my hand. He doesn’t let go of me but pulls me close. “Can I kiss you?” Chris asks. “Yes,” I reply with a small smile.

Chris brings me closer as I close my eyes. His lips press against mine with a gentle touch. 

His lips feel so soft as he kisses me for the first time since we decided to become a couple. 

I let go and pull him closer as our kiss deepens. No rules, no boundaries. Just us in our own little world. 

As we kiss, my mind starts to race. Can I do this? Can I ever love Chris? Can I let Dimitri go and move on? It makes my soul ache, but deep down inside that, I must move on if I ever want to live a normal life. I had to let the past go. 

The next day Chris and I meet Alex down in the living room to say goodbye. “You are an amazing and kind man. I can not repay the kindness that you have shown Chris and me in our time of need. I don’t know what we would have done without you,” I tell Alex. “You and Chris are always welcomed here. I have really enjoyed your company,” he says. 

 Before I can say anything else, “oh, and if you ever change your mind………You know where to find me,” he smirks. I find that I’m smiling and grinning back. “I’ll keep that in mind,” I reply.

 

  “I will give you a call when we get to the house. It’s not far from here, and it will be close to my new job,” Chris tells Alex. 

I hug Alex goodbye before Chris, and I leave. The world is ours for the taking, and now it’s time to reclaim my life. I can now have the life that I always dreamed about. A simple life with a family to love and no drama of being royal. The thought makes me smile.

When I reach the bottom of the stairs, I stop dead in my tracks as a sick feeling hits me. Chris is following behind me, unaware that I’m about to lose my lunch.

Chris walks around to face me. “Emily, what’s wrong?” he asks. I don’t have time to answer him as I turn on my heels and dart up the steps.

I run as fast as I can, fighting the urge to throw up. I can only hope I can make it on time. 

I get to the toilet just in time before it all comes up. I hurried several times before it stops. I sit here on the floor, hugging the commode like it’s my best friend. I’m feeling a little better until I hear Chris. “Emily, what’s wrong with you?” he says with concern. Why is it that he always manages to catch me in the most unladylike of times. “I’m fine,” I mumble. “Just my nerves again,” I tell him. 

I get up from the floor, flushing the toilet before I face him. I wipe my mouth to make sure I don’t have anything on my mouth. “You’re not coming down with anything, are you?” he asks. “No, it’s nothing,” I say as I laugh at him. “What’s so funny?” he asks. “Only you,” I smirk. 

I walk over to the sink and brush my teeth. I clean up as best as I can. To my surprise, I’m not a total mess like I thought.  

Me and Chris head downstairs to the living room. Alex is out today doing some errands, leaving me and Chris home. I sit down on the couch with Chris. I find that I’m deep in thought. When I look over at Chris, I can tell that he has a lot on his mind as the silence grows between us. I finally break the silence, “I miss them,” I sigh. “Me too,” he agrees. 

“How did we get into this mess?” I ask. “I don’t know, a massive attack of this magnitude has never happened. For them to take out that many guards and to take us by surprise like that, it was so unexpected,” he tells me as he rests his head into his hand as his brow creases from strain.

“I have no one left. It feels like I’m so alone,” I sigh.

Chris stands up abruptly, pulling me to my feet. “What the heck!” I say as I find that I’m now facing Chris in close proximity. My breath catches as he pulls me closer. “What is it?” I ask as he keeps a serious face.

He leans into where he’s very close. I start to pull away but stop as I wonder what’s going on with him. “You have me, let me protect you and take care of you,” he whispers. “I know, but it’s different,” I say.

He puts his forehead to mine. From the look on his face, I can see how torn he is with emotions. I’m not sure what is bothering him so bad today, but I always want to be here for him. He pulls me up against his body, and now his intentions are clear. He’s going to kiss me. “I can’t,” I mummer as I step away from him. 

“I’m sorry, I don’t know what came over me. Please don’t be mad at me,” he says.

“Chris, don’t be sorry, without you I wouldn’t be here. I could never be mad at you,” I tell him.

“So your not mad,” he asks. “No, I could never be mad at you,” I reply. He lets out a sigh, followed by Alex hollering at Chris.

“I will be back,” he says as he pulls me into his arms and hugs me tight. He turns and smiles at me as he leaves the room, leaving me with scattered thoughts.

Later that evening, Chris walks into the room with just his PJ pants on. I think Chris loves to show off when he gets the chance. He’s always had that playful personality. I’ve grown used to him running around shirtless these days. We have become so close that the small things are nothing to us anymore.

“Hey,” he chimes out as he comes to a halt in front of me. “What are you all happy about?” I ask as I watch him with amusement.

Then he unleashes his playful tickles. I’m giggling and laughing as I twist to try to get away from him. “Chris! Please,” I beg as he chases me. 

When he pulls away, I playfully swat at him. He grins from ear to ear. “What?” he laughs.

He scoops me up and spins me around as he laughs. “Chris put me down,” I scream out, followed by laughter. When he stops, his look goes from playful to serious.

“Will you give me a chance………..” he trails off. My heart stops, and I go blank for a second.

I run my hands through his silky hair as I stare down into his blue eyes. “Only you, yes, I will try. You know me better than I know my own self,” I whisper. 

“Can we take it slow,” I ask. “Anything for you. So, where do you want to go from here?” Chris asks. 

“What?” I ask. If we are to start this new life together, I want to start it with only you and me,” Chris says.

I look at this gorgeous man in front of me. I have never looked at Chris like this. We have been best friends for years, never looking at each other this way. Maybe he can free me from the pain that is in my heart. I’ll never be able to repay him for saving my life and everything that he has done for me. He is now asking for my heart, can I give it to him? Can I grow to love him? “Give me some time to think, but yes, I like this idea,” I reply with a smile.  

I’m bord, and the guys are no fun right now. Alex is watching tv, and Chris is reading. I walk across the room so I can do my own thing. I turn on the radio and start to dance. 

For the first time in a long time, I’m having fun. Alex gets up off the couch and joins me. We dance to a few songs, and to my surprise, Alex can dance. 

As we dance, I find myself having fun, but the feeling of guilt creeps up on me. I shrug off the emotions the best I can, so my good mood won’t get ruined. When the song ends, I step back from Alex, thanking him for dancing with me. “It was my pleasure, anytime you want to dance or hang out, just ask,” Alex tells me. As I head out of the room, I think about how Chris was being a sour sport, but Alex was a lot of fun. Maybe I can get them both to dance next time.

I head to the laundry room to do some laundry. I load the clothes into the washer, then finish filling the washing machine. After I close the lid and turn around, I see Alex standing there watching me with a grin. “You startled me,” I say. “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to scare you,” he says as he starts walking toward me.

When he gets close to me, he grabs my arm and gently pulls me toward the doorway. “Alex, what’s wrong?” I ask as I follow him. He takes me by surprise as he pins me to the wall. I’m so freaked out by this point that I can’t figure out what to do or what to say.

“Emily, you have me under a spell,” Alex says as he holds me into place. I put my hand on his shoulder to push him off but decide against it by the look he’s giving me. “I don’t have anyone under my spell. I think you confused,” I say.

“Emily, ever since you walked into my life, I can’t get you out of my head,” he says. “Alex, please let got of me; this is not a good idea,” I plead with him.

Alex lets go of my arm but moves closer to me. He’s about to kiss me when I push against his chest with everything I have. Alex stops before he kisses me. He finally lets me go, and I march out of the room.

I find myself standing in the living room, brooding. My mind is racing as my anger is getting the better of me. What the heck was he thinking?

Alex joins me after a few moments. He cautiously walks over to me, coming to a halt in front of me. I can now see that he’s hurt. To my surprise again, he wraps his arms around my waist and gently pulls me to him.

“Alex, what are you up to?” I ask as I lean away from him. “I’m sorry,” he says.

I’m speechless. Oh, this is bad, really bad. I’m no longer mad but confused and filled with panic. I put my hand against his chest to keep him from making any moves to kiss me.

“Emily, why won’t you date me. I can give you the world. I have never met anyone like you,” he says as he holds me.

“You don’t understand, Alex. I just can’t see you in that way. I don’t want to love anyone ever again. I just can’t open myself up to it. It’s just too painful,” I choke out. I know deep down he’s disappointed, and I know he’s probably hurt by my response, but I can no longer pretend.

I’m shocked. I don’t know what to say to that. After what seems like an eternity, I manage to find my words.

“I wish I could, but I’m a broken soul. I will never be the same. I deserve no one. Alex, you deserve someone that can love you back. I can’t give that to you. The last thing I want is to hurt you. If I said yes, I would do just that,” I tell him. He frowns as he takes in my response.

He steps close to me, taking my face into his hands. He brings me close but only to whisper. “Emily, you deserve someone, I know that in time you might love me once your heart heals. I know right now you can’t, but one day you may,” he says. “I won’t trust me, I know this to be true,” I reply. I pull away from him as I try to regain myself. I leave him standing there in the living room with a sad expression on his face.

I can’t think of anything else to tell him. I’m at a lost for words for the hundredth time. As I make my way out of the room, I find myself in the kitchen. I slump against the wall as I now feel drained. I close my eyes as I start to relax. I hear Alex talking to Chris.

“What can I do to win Emily over?” Alex asks. Are you kidding me, advice from Chris, I don’t want to be won over. “Alex, dude!” Chris huffs.

Alex is quiet for a moment. “Oh, I see, I get it now,” he says. What does he get, and what did Chris tell him. I didn’t hear him say anything. Did I miss something? Oh, the questions run through my mind. What are those two up to?

It’s been two months, and night after night I’m startled out of my sleep by own screams. I see their faces, hear their screams, unable to save them from their deaths. I jump out of bed as I try to slow my racing heart. 

It takes me a few moments to realize that it was a nightmare. I shake off the sick feeling that it leaves on me. Chris and Alex use to bust through my door every night, startled by my screams that echo through the night. I begged them to leave me alone in my darkest hours. 

I’m worn down and exhausted. I hate myself and everything that I represent. I never wanted anything to do with being royal. I never wanted to be the one that was next in line for the throne. I just want to be a normal girl. My tears start again for the hundredth time. I’m so tired of crying all the time. Sometimes I wish I would have been killed me along with everyone else.

I try to shake the feeling that I’m having. So I head downstairs to watch some tv to try to distract my thoughts. The distraction doesn’t last long before the dark thoughts claim me again. Everything on tv just reminds me of my family or a fond memory of them.

My tears start all anew. I’m lost again as I see all their faces over and over as they all die.

Chris pulls me from my dark thoughts. “Emily, please don’t cry. I hate to see you cry. Please talk to me. Was it another nightmare?” he asks.  

“I can’t get it out of my head. I hear their screams in my nightmares, see their faces as I watch them die over and over again. I can’t handle this. I can’t go on like this,” I tell him between my sobs.

“They’re going to find us, I just know it. I just want all this to be over. I don’t want to be scared all the time. I think if I had maybe distracted nightwalkers, Dimitri would still be alive and with us. I might have died with everyone else, and then I wouldn’t be here living in this nightmare that I’m living.

Chris pulls me into his arms to comfort me. “Hush, it’s going to be alright. Maybe not right now, but we will get through this. We can start a new life. One that we can leave our old lives behind and start a new”. My tears start again as I live a life without my family, friends, and Dimitri. Chris pulls me closer, and I, for once, find a little hope, a new life with Chris. Can I do this?

As daylight approached, I head into the kitchen and start to prepare some breakfast. It’s been part of my new routine that I have made myself do. I have to keep going, get out of bed, and move on. As I make breakfast, I think back on how much I had to learn. I never cooked when I was at home, and now I was getting pretty good at it.

As I take out some more ingredients from the fridge, I find Chris is cleaning up the kitchen. It’s so weird seeing him do dishes and cleaning. At one time, it was all about working out and doing guy things, how things have changed in just a short time. I push those thoughts from my mind as I continue cooking.

I finished the pancakes and set them out on the counter for the guys when they are ready to eat. Me, on the other hand, I’m ready to dig into them. I’m so hungry that it’s almost carnal.

My pancakes have turned out pretty good. Each bite brings pleasure to my mouth.

After I eat and clean up, I head to the game room to play some pool, its distracting enough. I find that I’m getting really good at it. I didn’t realize playing would be so much fun.

“Can I join you?” Alex asks as he walks over to me. “Oh, I’m not that good. I guess it would be nice to have someone to play with,” I reply as he grins at me.
I set up for a shot and do pretty good. I’m still no match for Alex at this game. I sink a few as he smirks at me.

I set up for a shot and do pretty good. I’m still no match for Alex at this game. I sink a few as he smirks at me.

He sets up to win the game. Without taking his eye off the ball, “I arranged for you some new clothes and stuff. I hope you don’t mind. I had them put in your room,” he says. What! He did what. Oh my. “You didn’t have to do that,” I whisper. “I know I don’t, but I enjoyed it really, I just don’t want to offend you. It’s just me being nice,” he adds. “Thank you,” I reply.

After Alex beats me at a game of pool, I head up to my room. When I open my closet, I’m shocked to see it’s full. I know he didn’t have to do this, but this feels too much. I pick out a swimsuit and head to the pool.

I will do some sunbathing today or go for a swim. I’m too scared to go anywhere else, so spending time at Alex’s house is my safe zone. It took two weeks to stop jumping at every sound. But the thoughts are still there. That one day they will find me.

After laying and dozing for a few, I decide its probably a good time to have a dip in the pool.

Alex grins at me as he gets out of the pool and heads to the diving board yet again.

He dives in making quite a splash, which makes me giggle a little. I decided to try it myself. I walk out on the diving board as it wobbles, and I’m sure I look silly, almost falling off of it. Here goes nothing. I leap off the board and do a belly flop. Ouch.

Chris is in his own world right now, reading a book while floating in the pool. I still have no idea why he does it; books and water don’t mix. So Alex and I try to stay to the other side of the pool to keep from getting Chris and his book wet.

“I know I haven’t been very friendly or even talkative. I just wanted to say thank you again for letting us stay here,” I tell Alex. “For you, anytime, no rush to find a place. You have a place here as long as you want,” he says to me. After a short conversation, I head inside.

Alex has a piano very similar to the one we had. I sit down and begin to play. I must have played several songs before I noticed that Alex was standing listening to me. “That’s very lovely, I can play a little, but you, you are amazing,” he says.

I get up and walk over to Alex, who is standing in shorts now, he must have changed his clothes since I have been playing. Why does he always seem to be topless around me? Geeze, it’s so distracting. “Emily, you know I have never met a girl like you, besides the whole fairy part. I was wondering if you would like to go out on a date with me,” he asks. Oh no, I stop breathing.

I’ve lost my words, sense of speech has gone and left me. I don’t want to hurt Alex since he’s been so good to Chris and me. I could never love anyone else, “I……well, om. I don’t,” is all I get out when Chris enters.

“Hey Alex, can I see you in the kitchen,” Chris says with a angry look on his face. Shew! I let out a breath that I must have been holding while trying to tell him that I can’t see him like that. That I’m broken and will never be able to get past that.

I can’t help but spy on them, what in the world could Chris want to tell Alex that has him so disturbed. “I can see that you like Emily, but don’t! She’s been through hell and back, and this is something that she can’t handle right now. She might not know this herself, but she’s barely holding on to her sanity. What we went through was hell. I know I was supposed to give you details, but I just couldn’t even bring myself to talk about it”, he tells Alex.

“I know it was bad, and well, I respect that. Maybe if I know more about what happened, then I would understand what you and Emily are going through. I could maybe help,” Alex says. “I think if you stop pursuing Emily, that will help. That would indeed help,” Chris tells Alex. I had no clue that Chris had not told him about what happened.

“Ok, well, you know she’s a fairy, but she was also the princess to the slaughtered family a few months ago. They did say that they figured she was dead even though they couldn’t find her body, well we managed to escape, but the rest were not as lucky as we were. Emily watched her sister that we all thought was dead, murder her boyfriend right in front of her. Not only that, Emily’s sister was now a Night Walker. She watched as all her family and friends were killed right in front of her. We would have been too, but…………….some of the others arrived giving us a window to escape. They gave their lives up for us. And one of them was my girlfriend. So yes, that’s why neither one of us talked about it. Alex’s mouth is on the floor. He’s gaping at Chris. “You should have told me. A princess, are you kidding me. I had no idea. I read about the massacre in the papers. It was a horrific crime that they still have not solved. They have an idea, but no leads yet. I will back off, but you can’t blame me. She’s gorgeous!” he grins. Oh no, he thinks I’m gorgeous. My heart sinks.

I run a bath to make myself feel a little better. Oh, the water feels so good.

After I climb out, I set out the clothes and begin to put my makeup on. My face has finally healed, and I look almost myself again. I feel like I have aged a hundred years, but for the most part, I look like me.

I don’t think I will ever feel normal again, but I have to start thinking about how to start over. They all sacrificed their lives to give me this chance at a life that I wouldn’t have without their sacrifice.

I pull my hair up, and it’s strange looking at myself in the mirror. I haven’t looked like this since. Stop it, Emily, I scold myself. Not bad, I think, as I step back, looking in the mirror. I get dressed and head downstairs.

The clothes fit perfectly, and I feel much better.

I run into Chris in the living room, and he’s gaping at me. “You look amazing,” Chris whispers.

I grab Chris and give him a big hug. “Thank you for doing what you did. I can never repay you for your kindness. And well, keeping me from going insane,” I tell him. “I would do it again, and will always keep you safe,” he replies.

“I want to make a stop before we head out,” he tells me. I’m getting excited just thinking about a whole day with Dimitri without worrying about anyone else keeping us apart. I follow Dimitri out to the garage where all the cars are. My parents have approved our outing, just the two of us.

“So are you going to tell me where your taking me?” I ask.

“It’s a surprise, your just going to have to be patient,” he says smoothly.

Looking over he’s so calm as a small smile plays on his lips. I find myself squirming in my seat. We pull up to a house that I don’t recognize. He parks the car then walks around to my side. “Were here, ” he says as he helps me out of the car. 

I follow him into the house that seems empty. He turns and locks the door then leads me into another room. He pulls me into his arms then kisses me gently on the lips. It’s moments like these that make the days apart from each other worth it.

As he kisses me all the thoughts of Ann disappear from my mind.

I feel so loved, he truly loves me. I’m on cloud nine and this man is my world. I would do anything for him. I will make a way to be with him. I don’t want to hide my love for him anymore. I want the whole world to know he’s mine.

He is so sweet and gentle when it comes to me that it makes my heart race. I love spending intimate times with him.”Where have you been all my life?” he whispers as he rubs his nose down mine. All I can do is grin up at him. He says the most heart warming things to me.

As I lay in his arms, I try to think of a way to convince my parents to change the law, so I can be with Dimitri. As I listen to his heart, a thought occurs to me, he’s never told me about the girl before me. I want to know, but deep down in my heart I know why he wont talk about her. Maybe he will tell me about her now. I look up at him and think of how I’m going to try to ask him without making him mad. “Dimitri, will you tell me about her now?” I ask. “Why do you need to know?” he asks. “I just would like to know, please tell me,” I plead. He takes a deep breath in then sighs. His face is now full of strain as he thinks.

“I was young, straight out of school. Her name is Lilly, we were both guardian’s, training to join the royal guards. We had trained together for a few years before we graduated. We had both been accepted into the royal guard program, but had not left yet to start our training. Still at the base, we were enjoying the time off we had.

“She was the first real relationship I had ever had, she was my first….,” he trials off. I can see the hurt in his eyes as he gathers his thoughts. She must have broke his heart, the thought is heartbreaking. I can feel the jealous side of me rearing it’s ugly head when I think about him kissing and making love to her. I can’t let this get to me, I got to let him tell me without showing any emotions. “Go on,” I urge him. “The night we finally got off, we were hanging together in my room and that’s when they attacked.

“The sounds of fighting broke out, followed by screams. Before I could get to the door, it came busting inward. There was a strange women with red eyes and pale skin that entered the room. I still can remember the smirk she had on her face as she approached me. She moved fast, and before I knew it, she was on me. I was fighting with everything I had but she was getting the best of me. We were trained and no one was even close to what this girl was like. I will spare you the details but something distracted her,” he says as he sighs. My mouth drops open, this is not what I was expecting at all.

“It was Lilly, she came in and I could hear her scream from across the room. She took in the sight of everyone and what was going on,” he continues. I watched a man that came in right behind her, rush toward her. I was still fighting when they collided. She fought hard but…………….,” he said then stopped in silence.

“She was knocked across the room before she had time to react. I tried to break free from the girl that was attacking me, but the man was already there,” he says. I look up at Dimitri, he’s white as a ghost. I think I have stopped breathing by this point.

“I watched her fight with everything she had. She kicked him and punched him with no effect at all. The man just grinned at her, then he grabbed her by her neck, holding her there while she struggled against his grasp. Lilly fought till her last breath, as I dodged the women’s blows. I took a hard kick to the ribs , causing me to fall to the ground. When I looked up, I saw that man snap her neck, then he tossed her aside like she was nothing. I was froze as I staired at her lifeless body laying on the floor,” he paused then takes another breath.

 “I got to my feet, fighting the women that was getting enjoyment from my pain. She was toying with me by the smile that she had on her face. She flipped her hair, then walked out of the room, leaving me standing there. My first mistake was, I let my guard down when I ran over to Lilly that was laying lifeless on the floor. I didn’t get two feet from her when I felt a sickening blow to the back of my head,” he tells me.

“I fell to the ground as everything started to go dark. That’s when I blacked out. They must have thought I was dead, because when I woke up they were gone…………………,” he chokes out.

“Everyone was dead and she laid lifeless right there beside me on the floor. I pulled her into my arms hoping it was all a bad dream, that she would wake up, but her life was already gone from this world. That is why I never got involved with anyone else, that’s why I’m so serious about what I do. I don’t want them to hurt anyone else, so I trained hard to learn how to defeat them,” he tells me. “Who are they?” I ask. 

“Night Walkers, the ones with the red eyes,” he answers. I gasp in shock, the same red eyes I saw in my nightmares could be the ones responsible for my sisters death.

I pull him tighter to me, this is not what I was expecting for him to tell me. I’m stunned, here I was feeling jealous of a girl that he loved, to only find out that she was murdered right in front of him. Now I feel bad for even asking, even though it lays a lot of my fears to rest. I know this memory has haunted him since the day it happened. “I’m so sorry, I had no idea,” I whisper. “I know you were curious about my past, and I knew that one day I would need to tell you about her. I was trying to get up enough courage to even tell you. I want you to know even though it hurts to talk about it. You are my future, she’s was my past, I’ve learned to move forward,” he tells me as he strokes my hair.

I have been writing sim stories for many years. My original story was posted on my blog site, jameessims3.blogspot.com. I wanted to rewrite it and continue this story. I took a break from writing sim stories to take my writing to the next level. I have wrote a few books that are in the making. I love fantasy themes and try to make the stories unique and interesting, with twists and turns that leave the readers wanting more. I hope you enjoy this journey with Emily.